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   hello everyone. I'm a new member on this site and i would just like to give a small testimony. Maybe some of you can relate to what I've been through. 

Well i grew up in the church and i became saved when i was a mere 13 years old. I loved God wholeheartedly and I truly followed his commandments. I became involved with this boy my age in the church..it went on for about four years (precious years wasted) until he moved on with another girl in our church..a close friend of mine. 

I was heartbroken and wasnt as strong in my faith as I used to be. This happened in my senior year in high school and I was dwindling in my faith while I mended my broken heart. 

Its true that Satan gets you when you are weakest in faith. He put in front of me a guy who i worked with to further distract me from my Lord. We went to prom together and fell in love..and he wasnt christian. this i tried to convince myself was no big deal because i didnt want to let him go but i knew deep down inside it wasnt part of God's plan. 

But i stayed with him, ignoring my father's advice as well as God's voice himself. And before i knew it i was caught and tangled in a web of sin and lust and i gave him my virginity. it crushed me so hard because i had always wanted to wait till marriage. I felt ashamed. 

Although i knew i couldnt hide it from God, i tried to keep it from my father and sisters but it was no use. they soon found out and it spread like wildfire. I was not the same girl anymore. 

I knew i had to break up with the guy but it took an agonizing year to do so. I cant deny that i was in love with him..that i know was real. but just because it was real didnt make it right. 

When i was ready I came before God at the altar and poured my heart and soul and tears out before Him. I could feel Him comforting me and taking the weight i had been carrying for so long. He had forgiven me of my sins and i was redeemed. 

To this day i look back and regret so many things but God reminds me that He would rather see us fall and get back on our feet before Him then fall and never come back to Him again. 

Thank you for reading

God Bless