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11. Fortress of Solitude

Anti-Meridian
by brave Saint Saturn



 

I am the ghost of haunting hope
A trailing phantom
Some withering wisp of smoke slipping by
And these are my words flung through the sky
Trailing red like a cape
Longing to fly
On this, their thirteenth try
This prison of mine is to carry alone
The light of one red sun
Beneath my skin
And never, ever go home
To watch the ravens fly so very far, far away

Chorus:
Fortress of solitude,
I値l stay here, I値l make you all believe
And if my words have forked no lightning
Never shall I sleep again

With sickening speed, red hearts on blue sleeves
The bullets of your words
Could scarcely set their teeth into me
But I am made frail in one single bound
My traitorous soil
Slings me so far down without a sound
To watch the ravens fly so very far, far away

Chorus

Never going to stop, not a break in my stride
Never let this cancer eat from inside
Raise the flag high with fists to the sky
I値l finish this or this is goodbye
Spies to the right set their claws to kill me
Lies from the left clasp their jaws on the guilty
I値l break free, I値l break free
Just you watch me

So discouraged, so dismayed
See the poison, dripping from their blades
There is lightning left in these words
I will still fly, rising with the birds
I have carried the sun in my skin
I cannot stop, I cannot win
Forked tongues, forcing me to kneel
As if I was no man made of steel
What if these weak words that I have tripped on
Sing that I am the last son of Krypton?
I hate you all, I hate you all
This will never sleep



Behind the Song:
'I tried to use a lot of Superman imagery, because what this song is really about is my own unobtainable struggles with achieving perfection. The main reason this album took so long to make, is because I thought that the more of its production that I could control, the better it would be. But that didn't prove to be true. I've never had the ability to sit in the basement every night after work and make music, and in some ways this was great, not having to answer to a label, or anyone else. The problem is that I had to be the only gatekeeper of what I felt should be allowed to go on the album, and so I became obsessive about it. I felt like my whole musical history up to this point had been laden with mistakes, so I had to try to make this album perfect. It's not that I hated any of our fans, it's just that when some kid gets your number off of the internet and keeps calling you to ask if you are going to get Five Iron back together, it puts all of your failure under a microscope. What I hated, at the time, was myself, and that voice in my head that kept telling me that i wasn't good enough, or the songs weren't going to make it. So this song was me fighting that. I made a pretty song, and then destroyed it. Originally, this song had an actual voice mail from that kid calling me, but we took it off, because I wouldn't want that guy to think that I was saying I hated him. (It was Andy on the album version, pitch corrected to sound like a 12 year old). Yeah, I want him to stop calling me, but more than that, I want something that we can only achieve in death, and that is for God to say 'Well done, my good and faithful servant.' And know that I tried my hardest. To know that we don't have to be like Superman, heck... even Captain America *wink*, but maybe to settle for just being Spider-man. Just to know that even though life sucks, you get up each new day, and make tomorrow a better place for somebody else in this world.' - Reese Roper

 

 

 

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This Wednesday, August 13, 2025
ALBUMS
Various Artists Songs We've Been Trying To Tell You About (And Others We Haven't), Vol. 14 [JFH Music]

This Friday, August 15, 2025
ALBUMS
Mark Bishop Grandkids - EP [Sonlite]
The CCC Collective Brooklyn Culture (independent)
Equippers Worship Awe [DREAM Worship]
The Final Witness Beneath The Altar [Rottweiler]
Grammatrain Flying Collector's Edition CD [Girder]
Grammatrain Lonely House 30th Anniversary Edition CD [Girder]
Katy Nichole Honest Conversations [Centricity]
REFVGE REFVGE 1 [Syntax]
Relentless Pursuit Apocalypsis (independent)
V1 Worship Archives [DREAM]
Joel Vaughn Feel It - EP [DREAM]

SINGLES
ANTHNY no stages - Single [Provident]
Johan ナsg舐de Coming Home - Single [Gotee]
Dave Barnes Everything But Mine - Single (independent)
Chris Caro Pain Pt. 3 - Single [Syntax]
Jeff Deyo There is a Fire - Single [NWN]
Drenae Dead Seed - Single [Syntax]
F'rael Pardon My Grace - Single [Syntax]
Jeremy and Adrienne Camp Worthy Of It All / I Exalt Thee (Jeremy and Adrienne Camp Version) - Single [Sparrow]
Linc Worship I Know - Single (independent)
Steven Malcolm All God - Single [Curb]
Jeannie Ortega Little Girl is Gone - Single [Syntax]
outr.cty Testin' Your Luck (ft. Selah the Corner & Dre Murray) - Single [Syntax]
Matt Redman Let Me See Jesus / Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus (feat. Charity Gayle) - Single [Integrity]
Rhymes in Harmony Beautiful Name - Single [Syntax]
Brandon Lake, Phil Wickham, & Elevation Worship So So Good (Live) - Single [Fair Trade]

VINYL
Grammatrain Flying Vinyl [Girder]
Grammatrain Lonely House 30th Anniversary Edition Vinyl [Girder]
Newsboys Going Public Vinyl [Girder]

Next Friday, August 22, 2025
ALBUMS
Lecrae Reconstruction [Reach]
Lizzie Morgan Not My Will [Provident]
Josiah Queen MT. ZION [Capitol CMG]

SINGLES
Dust and Grace Hallelujah - Single [MTS]
Good Weather Forecast Today (feat. Elijah Thomas) - Single [DREAM]
Roxanne Grace Try Again - Single [DREAM]
Mainstream Worship Invitation - Single [DREAM Worship]
V1 Worship Been So Faithful - Single [DREAM Worship]



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