I've written songs in the dark
I've felt inspired in the dark
I hide myself in the dark
Used to be afraid of the dark
Those in the light know we die in the dark
There's only artificial light
My flaws hide well here
I used to be afraid of cluttered noises
Now I'm afraid of silence
Fill this space Idle words
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did.
Now I am mute despite myself
All of them are gone
The silence overtakes me
The idle words forsake me and I am left to face me
I'm held accountable
For every idle word
Curse the idle words
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did, like you did.
Glory shows up
Exposes us
I'm naked here
Forsaken here, by the dark, by the dark
Damn the dark
I'm scared to death of light and silence
Jesus kill me inside this
Raise me up to live again
Like you did
Like you did.
Behind the Song:4.3.03
Many of my soldiers don’t know this, but I grew up in the Dread Army and
was a slave to Death as a young man. The Dread Army lives in the dark,
so that’s where I lived when I was with them. I loved the darkness because I
could hide all my flaws there. I never realized that darkness is a deceptive
enemy. Everyone in the Dread Army is afraid of silence, so they fill every
moment with empty, idle words. They all lie, so you can never truly know
the genuine identity of a Dread Army soldier. One night I was spying on
Passerby territory when I was captured and brought before the King of the
Passerby Army. At the foot of His throne, where I laid trembling on the
ground, was the most brilliant light I’d ever seen. There was no darkness to
hide in, and for the first time I saw all that I really was. The silence in
this place was immense because in the light of The King, there is nothing
to say... only things to realize. I had been an enemy of this powerful King
all my life and if He had sentenced me to death right there it would have
been right... it would have been justice. Amidst these heavy thoughts, I was
startled to feel the King’s hand under my chin as he leaned down and
lifted my face to his own. He spoke with a Love I’ve never known before,
saying, “We only want voluntary allegiance in the Passerby Army. If you
stay here, you will be changed and it will feel like the old you
has died, or... you may remain in the darkness as a slave. Either way,
I love you, my son. You are free to choose.”
As I left to go back to the Dread Army camp, I questioned everything I’d ever
known. I realized in the face of the King’s Love that all my love was
selfish and not really Love at all. It was true that the only way for me
to be changed would be for the King to kill who I had become, and
raise me up to live again, making me new.