I don’t need You to exist
Just so I can feel good
They tell me that I should
Well at the same time I admit
I like You best when You’re understood
So I can feel good
I thought I had You figured out
Then You broke all my silly rules
If there’s supposed to be a little bit of doubt
Then You’re right, and I’m the fool
Oh my God, You’re just not what I thought I knew was true
Oh no, what have I got myself into?
Did I, Did I find the real You?
You put Your law inside my mind
In a place I cannot find
Subconsciously in line
You wrote it on a stone that’s my heart
The fear of who You are
A Truth I can’t deny
I thought I had You figured out
Then You broke all my silly rules
Oh my God, You’re just not what I thought I knew was true
Oh no, what have I got myself into?
I’ve gone crazy over “if’s” and “maybe’s”
Can I believe this?
Help my unbelief, my unbelief in You
Still want to find You
Oh my God, You’re just not what I thought I knew was true
Oh no, what have I got myself into?
Have I gone crazy over “if’s” and “maybe’s”
Can I believe this?
My unbelief, my unbelief in You
I found the real You
Well I don’t need You to exist
So I can feel good
‘Cause now I’m feeling good
I think I found the real You
Written by Michael Watson
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Behind the Song:"The biggest hindrance to my walk with God has been “Christian sub-culture”--the type of Christianity that sells Jesus as a “feel good” drug or fix. This is the type of Christianity that says if you look, talk, listen to, read this and do that enough, only then are you a Christian. Reading the story of Jesus, I see a much different person than the one I’m being sold. I see a God who doesn’t care for religion but who wants a close relationship. What an awesome, liberating yet terrifying truth that our salvation is not in how much we know or how much we have done for Jesus, but rather if He knows us.” – Michael Watson (
Above The Golden State)