So is it courage or strength and is that what I’m waiting for
If I could just kill myself, would it also kill the remorse
I wanted so badly, to catch a break but I’m only breaking down
I’m still here and standing but if it’s up to me I don’t think
I’ll be hanging around

The drink slips down my throat and the burn cures nice and slow
All the worst parts I wouldn’t want you to see.
The only parts left of me and now here I am
Just a kid without a better plan
But it’s the simple thoughts that haunt me the most
I never got to see the west coast

Spend my nights just asking
Why would God let me become like this
Was it a joke from the start
Was I supposed to laugh more at it
And everyone’s quoting their teachers and preachers but their words make me feel so alone
No one ever says that they’ve had those thoughts in the middle of the night
No ever admits that they wanted to take their life

But it’s the life I dreamed I’d have
The love I would find in my grasp
The words I could share with someone

Those thought keep the breath in my lungs
That tomorrow my hope will become
Fulfilled by a love that can’t be undone
And save a wretch like me

So if the drink slips down your throat
And the burn cures nice and slow
All the worst parts you wouldn’t want me to see
The same parts I have in me
Now this scares me too,
We are both this way, I feel just like you do
But when you’re by yourself you should know
One day we gotta see the west coast