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03. Matriarch
Album: Volition
Artist: As Hell Retreats
         
 

[-After the death of someone who represented the boy's only accurate depiction of a god that truly loves us, the boy begins to fear that he has been deserted and feels unloved.]

My matriarch, my anchor
Was the only thing to give me grasp and connection
To what love was to me and what love could ever be.
Instead you decimate my thoughts of what a loving being I could have been.
Now I will never reach that high.
She was the saint that had believed in me, Lord.
She was the only saint that I had eyes for.
You left me here, alone. What did I do?
I was starting to put my faith in you!
Could you not see that she was the only one that kept the single golden thread
From being cut from truth?
Nothing stays gold, or so I am told
Now may I be so bold to say that this life is worth nothing!
I am only so young, God.
But you don’t even flinch to take away my matriarch, my anchor.
Innocence is dead.
My matriarch, my anchor…is dead.


 

More Lyrics from Volition

  1. 01. Young Heretic
  2. 02. The Loss
  3. 03. Matriarch
  4. 04. Shun
  5. 05. Heaven's Bane
  6. 06. Misanthropist
  7. 07. A Beggar...
  8. 08. ...And His Faith
  9. 09. Transgress
  10. 10. Desperation
  11. 11. Creator(s)
  12. 12. Only Hope
                 
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This Friday, Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
Big Daddy Weave It's Time For Christmas - EP [Curb]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas LIVE) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Blessing Offor The King Has Come - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]
Tae Lamar, YP aka Young Paul The Re-Up - Single [Polished Arrow]
Vineyard Worship Jesus Our Christ - Single [Vineyard]

VINYL
Meadows DESERT WALKER Vinyl [Facedown]

Next Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

Next Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

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