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Much Afraid cover
08. Portrait of an Apology
Album: Much Afraid
Artist: Jars of Clay
         
 

Look what I've done
This picture I've painted
It looks like my heart
Or what still remains

Convinced of the weight
Your interpretations
Are not what I see
I wish they could be

I remember it much redder
I remember it much brighter

CHORUS
Can you stay for a while
Try to imagine this
Could you be for a while
I can't remember it
Could you fall for a while
I can't escape from this

I'll try to explain
The way that the frame
Doesn't quite fit the image
Or surround the edge

It stands on display
What do you see
Behold all the new grey
What's become of the old me

I remember it much redder
I remember it much brighter

CHORUS

Calling, crying, ashamed of what I am not
Really failing
Falling into this cage
And I can't escape
I can't escape

Look what I've done
This picture I've painted
Doesn't quite fit
Or surround the edge
I remember it much redder

CHORUS

I can't escape
I can't escape
I can't escape

Words and music by Dan Haseltine, Matt Odmark, Steve Mason, Charlie Lowell © 1997 BridgeBuilding Music (BMI)/ Pogostick Music (BMI). All rights reserved.

 

More Lyrics from Much Afraid

  1. 01. Overjoyed
  2. 02. Fade to Grey
  3. 03. Tea and Sympathy
  4. 04. Crazy Times
  5. 05. Frail
  6. 06. Five Candles (You Were There)
  7. 07. Weighed Down
  8. 08. Portrait of an Apology
  9. 09. Truce
  10. 10. Much Afraid
  11. 11. Hymn
                 
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This Friday, Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
Big Daddy Weave It's Time For Christmas - EP [Curb]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas LIVE) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Blessing Offor The King Has Come - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]
Tae Lamar, YP aka Young Paul The Re-Up - Single [Polished Arrow]
Vineyard Worship Jesus Our Christ - Single [Vineyard]

VINYL
Meadows DESERT WALKER Vinyl [Facedown]

Next Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

Next Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

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