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Lyrics:
I don’t think you trust in my self righteous suicide
VERSE 1 God what have I done Won’t you save me from this filthy kind of man I’ve become I wish that I could take that day away wish I could say that’s not me But I can’t seem to wash the smell of sin up off my body And it haunts me how fast and far I can fall Let my guard down for a minute and I’m back against the wall And I must have some gall Convictions, none at all As often as I do it one would think that I just love to fall Seek you at the church and I seek you at my home And I teach you to my friends and I pray when I’m alone But that doesn’t seem to matter still I fall in seconds flat And the devil’s in my ear like Boy you should be stepping back You’re not worthy of his grace and you’re not worthy of forgiveness Kill yourself, your such a wreck just ask around you’ll find a witness To the dirt you’ve left behind in your wake with every crime So your family and humanity would be better if you just died
HOOK I don’t - I don’t I don’t think you trust - trust I don’t think you trust - trust I don’t think you trust In my self righteous suicide I don’t think you trust - trust I don’t - I don’t think you trust - trust I don’t - I don’t think you trust In my self righteous suicide
VERSE 2 God what have I done How far can I run Before I’ve outrun your grace Even the prodigal son Turned his back he turned away from his devious ways But I revisit mine daily and I easily stray And you can see that I pray For your wisdom and your clarity Intentional ignorance is my lack of sincerity How long have you been sparing me From consequences I deserve Tell the world I serve my God But God can tell it’s me I serve Head belongs down on a curb Spill my brains for every word Every grain of heavy dirt Every stain and every hurt Every pain I’ve laid before me Righteous death to end my story Life I’ve lived it lacks your glory Life I’ve lived is sad and gory That’s word to Maury I belong on a talk show Getting smacked up by fam who has totally lost hope They know that I’m a lost cause know that I’m a lost soul I’m feeling hostile going towards the crossroads
HOOK
VERSE 3 Go on and trust your suicide boy It’s better if you died boy Do it now before you hurt more people with your life boy You’ll be digging this hole deeper Til the day you meet the reaper Til your family won’t forgive you And God won’t forgive you either You’re out of reach for the host of heaven to reach you God won’t see an enemy and I can hear and I believe the Voice that’s ever in my brain Try to pray but I’m ashamed And I fall apart reduce to tears when I cry his name I’m entrenched in this sin, I’ve let them all down now Trying to bring his mercy in, but no mercy’s found now Down and out I bow down, wish I had another chance But I wouldn’t blame the saints if they ain’t give another glance Not to me, honestly I don’t know what I was thinking Thought I walked with God on water not at all though I was sinking I’m on the brink of stepping off of the deep end So if you’re here for all the sinners Jesus please be here for me then
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