Air is dry, the sun is gone
When I breathe, I breathe alone
Ten times a day I cry
Just to prove that I’m alive
Oh, that I’m alive
I have tried to be the queen
I have tried most everything
Leads me to the same place
On my knees or on my face
On my knees or on my face
Nations fall when You speak
And You have spoken over me
I am tired of giving in so easily
The way You keep on loving me
Is changing everything I see
It’s a great big mystery
The fingers on my weathered bow
Are giving out and letting go
I need You now to take me in
I cannot fight alone again
Can’t fight alone again
You are the mystery
Written by Ed Cash and Bethany Dillon / Dan Needham: Drums
Calvin Turner: Bass /
Ed Cash: Wurli, Acoustic Guitar, Electric Guitar, Programming /
Background Vocals: Bethany Dillon, Katie Adelsberger, Ed Cash /
©2004 EMI CMG Music Publishing / Alletrope Music (BMI)
Behind the Song:'From the very first time I heard the rawness of the music to this song, I knew I wanted to say something that would rightly embody it. The wildness of God was the first concept that came to mind. Often, we think of God as someone who is tame and subdued when the truth is the very opposite! We knew what we wanted to say, but getting the lyric laid down, one that really got at the heart of the matter, was a whole other thing. After wrestling with this song for almost six months, Ed Cash suggested one night that I write down who God is to me. So Ed busied himself in the studio and I wrote down everything in my heart and mind. The pages were quickly filled with thoughts, quotes, and words: “God is bigger than our desires, he’s bigger than our mistakes… He chooses to love us in the midst of our failures.” I left the studio that night and it was hard to imagine how we’d get a complete song from three pages of my heart scribbled out in messy handwriting. I arrived at the studio the next morning and the bulk of the song was written! The original theme—the wildness of God— is evident even though the song is now centered on the mystery of God. The mystery and the wildness of God draw us to Him when we see depth of our need. It takes a reckless and free God to love humanity. And that in part is the great mystery. “The way you keep on loving me is changing everything I see/ it’s a great big mystery.”' -
Bethany Dillon