Jesusfreakhideout.com celebrates 30 Years online in 2026... Get Your Music - and everything else - on Amazon! All purchases made on Amazon through this link earn a commission for Jesusfreakhideout.com!
Jesusfreakhideout.com celebrates 30 Years online in 2026... Get Your Music - and everything else - on Amazon! All purchases made on Amazon through this link earn a commission for Jesusfreakhideout.com!

JFH Song Lyrics

  Artist List   /   Showbread   /   Cancer





01. I'm Afraid That I'm Me

Cancer
by Showbread



 

 

the world is sick and all of us in it
so fight the cancer
fight the cancer
don't bow your head to it

the world is sick but it won't die from it
so fight the cancer
fight the cancer
don't bow your head to it

i'm afraid that i am me
and i had no say in this
i dare to be self-aware when ignorance is bliss
i never do the things i want
i do what i don't want to
i'm fortified for treachery and hopelessly untrue

remember when we were all small?
with stained-glass windows stretched up the walls
we listened to words we could not understand
as they echoed through the church halls
they stacked us up conveniently
and fed us from their tables
they deduced what we should know
because we weren't able
and as we grow we feel we know
the truth of where we've been
satiated by their oaths
dragged on the heels of holy men

lately i have found frustration among the incongruence
a movement of peasants and pacifists drowning in patriotic affluence
i feel as though i should do something but i'm staggered by the ramifications
they've baptized the empire into the church and heralded its sanctification

sometimes i feel as though i'm taking place outside of myself
but i'm afraid that i am me
i am me
i'm me
i'm me

"blessed are the meek" succumbs to "might makes right"
"turn the other cheek" succumbs to pre-emptive strike
"love your enemies" is fossilized beneath the frozen tundra
and "blessed are the poor in spirit" is devoured by "God bless America"

you file the children into the classrooms, make them stand and say an oath
and when we ask "should i love God or my country?"
you smile and tell us "both."
we've hidden the God we claim we serve and driven him beneath the floorboards
but i can still hear this still, small voice
and i can't take it anymore


 

 

 

 

go to main Album page
Return to Full List of Artists

 

                 
Get a FREE month of VidAngel on us when you sign up!

Search JFH



This Friday, May 22, 2026
ALBUMS
Jason Dunn Formerly Known As... (independent)
The Figs How Did We Get Here? (independent)
Grand Motel Tooth of the Lion: A Spring Perennial (independent)
Philippa Hanna x Irael Houghton Magnificent [Integrity]
Jenn Johnson Happy [Bethel]
Lakewood Music + Worship Together Thank The Lord (Worship Together Session) EP [Worship Together]
Under the Myrtles The Curse is Broken - EP (independent)
Rusty Vining & His Friends Already / Not Yet (independent)

SINGLES
Cory Asbury Outsing The Angels - Single [BEC]
Autumn's Descent Caesar (I'll Haunt You Now) - Single (independent)
Caleb & John x Steven Curtis Chapman Proud - Single [Fair Trade]
CCV Music He's Working (Everything for Good) - Single [Harmony Group]
GVTH DVDDY Who Knows How It Ends? - Single [Velvet Blue Music]
J. Solo In the Good & Bad ft. Boannski - Single [Syntax]
Kamban No Chainmail (Freestyle) - Single [Syntax]
Myles Maestro LONELY SOUL - Single [Syntax]
Eddy Mann I Will Never Know the Desert Again - Single [MTS]
Darius Mullin Tombstone Blues ft. Paper Watch - Single (independent)
outr.cty, Zippy, OnBeatMusic CHEESIN' - Single [Syntax]
Presence Music Pick Up That Book - Single (independent)
Razzie, TUVÍ, & Baruch WEWHOOPINHELL - Single [Syntax]
Tyraels Ascension Bittersweet - Single [Rottweiler]
Wavorly EXILE - Single (independent)
Charles Weems I Will Follow - Single [Provident]
Ayiesha Woods No Rock (feat. Mr. Talkbox) - Single (independent)

Next Tuesday, May 26, 2026
SINGLES
Stryper I'm Alright, (I'm Okay) - Single [Frontiers]

Next Friday, May 29, 2026
ALBUMS
Benjamin William Hastings x Aodhán King Happy To Be Here [Anotherland/Capitol CMG]
Heartbound Lamentations (independent)
Narnia X [Sound Pollution]
Skye Peterson Through Line (independent)
Mike Rogers Mike Rogers [Gaither]
Tenroc God Is A Person [Provident]
Various Artists To Hell with the Devil - A 40th Anniversary Salute [Roxx]

SINGLES
Abandoned Pools Einstein's Space and Van Gogh's Sky - Single (independent)
Gracie Binion & John Wilds Show Me Your Face - Single [BEC]
KNGDM REVIVAL Psalm 44 - Single [Dream]
Hillside Recording Every Morning - Single [Ocean House]
Northview Worship Wildly Faithful - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante Like You Do - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Every Reason To Bellieve - Single [BEC]

VINYL
Newsboys Take Me To Your Leader (30th Anniversary Edition) [Red] [Girder]


For all release dates, click here!
 

Purchase Original Art Prints, Drawings, Stickers, Bookmarks and more from JFH's own John DiBiase!
Need proofreading and editing help? We've got you covered! Click here to learn more
Check out depositphotos for royalty free images