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10. Who I Am Hates Who I've Been
Album: Mmhmm
Artist: Relient K
         
 

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific
And you might think I’m losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don’t want you to know where I am
Cause then you’ll see my heart in the saddest state it’s ever been
And this is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That’s exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should have said that
It’s the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I’m sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been

I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn’t keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside had finally begun
To create so much pressure that I’d soon blow up

And I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together I would watch me fall apart

And I can’t let this happen again
Cause then you’ll see my heart in the saddest state it’s ever been
And this is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That’s exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should have said that
It’s the very moment that I wish that I could take back
(2X)

I’m sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been

Who I am hates who I’ve been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I’ve been
Cause who I’ve been only ever made me

So sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been


Written by Matthew Thiessen ©2004 Gotee Music / Redcoats Are Coming Publishing (BMI) – admin by EMI CMP

 

More Lyrics from Mmhmm

  1. 01. The One I'm Waiting For
  2. 02. Be My Escape
  3. 03. High Of 75
  4. 04. I So Hate Consequences
  5. 05. The Only Thing Worse Than Beating A Dead Horse Is Betting On One
  6. 06. My Girl's Ex-Boyfriend
  7. 07. More Than Useless
  8. 08. Which To Bury, Us Or The Hatchet?
  9. 09. Let It All Out
  10. 10. Who I Am Hates Who I've Been
  11. 11. Maintain Consciousness
  12. 12. This Week The Trend
  13. 13. Life After Death And Taxes (Failure II)
  14. 14. When I Go Down
                 
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Band Reeves How To Forgive [Centricity]
CalledOut Music The Room [Integrity]
MotionPlus, Braille Still Dreamin' - EP [Gospel Banquet]
Lauren Talley Walls (Part One) - EP [Horizon]
Terrian Mad Big World [Gotee]

SINGLES
Lady Audri A Lady's Prayer - Single [Syntax]
Bleach Once Again Here We Are - Single [Residence]
Chris Caro RESTLE$$ - Single [Syntax]
Dex the nerd who loves Jesus A Sinners Mercy (ft. tonyxtrotter & TNV) - Single [Syntax]
ELEOS Anchor For My Soul - Single (independent)
goodwill. CAN'T BE - Single [Syntax]
Grace Frances Waiting For Me - Single (independent)
Eddy Mann We Are - Single [MTS]
No Vain Glory TALUKA - Single [Syntax]
WallerCo, John Waller Daddy's Here (Journee's Dream) - Single (independent)

Next Friday, August 28
ALBUMS
Anthem Edition Something's Goin' On - EP [Sonlite]
DOE Shiloh [Provident/Sony]
Every Moment Holy: Prayer Songs, 2026 Q3 Anchoring the Heart in Hope (independent)
Noah Paul Harrison Do Not Go Gentle (Live) [Bethel]
Prevailer Convalescent [Rottweiler]
John Van Deusen As Long As I Am in the Tent of This Body I Will Make A Joyful Noise Pt. 2 [Anotherland Records]

SINGLES
Tim Hughes Make A Way (Live) - Single [Integrity]
Katy Weirich & Jake MacAdam Holy Ground - Single (independent)
John Long Trust In Him - Single (independent)
Adam Michael Pass the Parcel - Single (independent)
Leslie Perez Waiting For - Single [Gotee]
Simply Worship & Sam Daniel Lamb of God - Single (independent)
Ryan Stevenson Eye of the Storm (Anniversary Edition) - Single [Gotee]


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