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10. Who I Am Hates Who I've Been
Album: Mmhmm
Artist: Relient K
         
 

I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the pacific
And you might think I’m losing my mind
But I will shy away from the specifics
Cause I don’t want you to know where I am
Cause then you’ll see my heart in the saddest state it’s ever been
And this is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That’s exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should have said that
It’s the very moment that I wish that I could take back

I’m sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been

I talk to absolutely no one
Couldn’t keep to myself enough
And the things bottled inside had finally begun
To create so much pressure that I’d soon blow up

And I heard the reverberating footsteps
Syncing up to the beating of my heart
And I was positive that unless
I got myself together I would watch me fall apart

And I can’t let this happen again
Cause then you’ll see my heart in the saddest state it’s ever been
And this is no place to try and live my life

Stop right there
That’s exactly where I lost it
See that line
Well I never should have crossed it
Stop right there
Well I never should have said that
It’s the very moment that I wish that I could take back
(2X)

I’m sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been

Who I am hates who I’ve been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me
Who I am hates who I’ve been
Cause who I’ve been only ever made me

So sorry for the person I became
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
Cause who I am hates who I’ve been
Who I am hates who I’ve been


Written by Matthew Thiessen ©2004 Gotee Music / Redcoats Are Coming Publishing (BMI) – admin by EMI CMP

 

More Lyrics from Mmhmm

  1. 01. The One I'm Waiting For
  2. 02. Be My Escape
  3. 03. High Of 75
  4. 04. I So Hate Consequences
  5. 05. The Only Thing Worse Than Beating A Dead Horse Is Betting On One
  6. 06. My Girl's Ex-Boyfriend
  7. 07. More Than Useless
  8. 08. Which To Bury, Us Or The Hatchet?
  9. 09. Let It All Out
  10. 10. Who I Am Hates Who I've Been
  11. 11. Maintain Consciousness
  12. 12. This Week The Trend
  13. 13. Life After Death And Taxes (Failure II)
  14. 14. When I Go Down
                 
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This Thursday, October 15
SINGLES
Anberlin TRENCHES (feat. Switchfoot) - Single [Equal Vision]

This Friday, October 16
ALBUMS
Alexander Pappas & The Lofi Christian HINDSIGHT (independent)
Josh Baldwin Worth Everything [Bethel Music]
Grace Frances Clothed with Dignity (independent)
Vince Gill 50 Years From Home: Marty And Me - EP [MCA Nashville]
Jamie MacDonald Jamie MacDonald (The Deluxe Album) [Capitol CMG]
Northview Worship Awaken to Wonder (Live at the Conservatory) [BEC]
Jenna Raine Jeans, Boys & Jesus (Deluxe) [Warner Bros.]
Ryan Trey FAITH OVER FAME (independent)
Unteachers Under Bright Sadness [Rottweiler]

SINGLES
Bad Plans i_just_wanna_vibe - Single (independent)
Riley Clemmons For The Boy - Single [Capitol CMG]
Dex the nerd who loves Jesus Holy Barz (ft. TNV & Bill B.) - Single [Syntax]
The Dryes Mud Room - Single (independent)
EJ Swavv Nineveh? - Single [Syntax]
Hyper Fenton Good Enough for Me - Single (independent)
Hannah Kerr Welcome to Our World - Single [Curb]
The Kingdom Heirs Until Faith - Single [Sonlite]
Steven Malcolm OUTSIDE - Single [Curb]
Lloyd Nicks Common Ground (feat. Harper Grace, Cochren & Co, Blanca) - Single [Curb]
PEABOD Ooh! - Single (independent)
Charly Perry In the Middle - Single [Gotee]
Sleeping At Last Parallel Universe (Philia) - Single (independent)
Slow Salvation Wait Around Another Day - Single [Velvet Blue]
Vineyard Worship & Dreaming The Impossible I Follow Jesus (Disciple) - Single [Vineyard Worship UK]

Next Friday, October 23
ALBUMS
Bleach Fox Den Sessions, Vol. 1 [Residence]
Alex Henry Foster The Fragile Beauty (Of New Morning Hopes) [Hopeful Tragedy]
Future of Forestry untitled (independent)
Galactic Cowboys What Planet Are You From? (independent)
Myles Maestro IDENTITY CRISIS [Syntax]
QEW & Cyrus Sonata Chamber Saga EP [Syntax]
Josiah Queen Damascus Road [Capitol CMG]
The Sean Coleman Project Apropos of Nothing (independent)
We The Kingdom Soon The Streets Of Gold [Capitol CMG]

SINGLES
Dave Barnes Christmastime - Single (independent)
Biscuits x albion. dawn - Single (independent)
Chris Caro Hannah's Song - Single [Syntax]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Joyful Joyful - Single (independent)
Keep Warm Like You (feat. Relient K) - Single [Real Fun]
Mountains in the Sea My Burden Is Light - Single [Dream]
Naveszn Meadow - Single [Syntax]
No Vain Glory MOVE YOUR BODY (PT2) - Single [Syntax]
Jordan Rowe If Jesus Lived In My Hometown - Single [Tape Room / Capitol CMG]
Saints in Exile Haunted Nobody - Single [Syntax]
Tommis & Company Your Name Is Jesus (Acoustic) - Single (independent)


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