Dear Jesus where are you tonight

I bear a sadness deep inside

I’m aching for a faith in things I strain to feel

I need to know that you are real

Oh Savior open up my eyes

I wanna see You like a child

There is a haze on the horizons of my heart

Dear Jesus show me where you are



Be my firelight, be my firelight

Burning fierce and bright, be my firelight



How do I move on and be free

From all these things that I have seen

All of my memories are turning into scars

Oh my God put back what’s been torn apart

If anyone remembers my name

If I’m ever known for anything

Let it be I ran into the night

Running with a firelight, firelight

Cause I don’t wanna stroll the streets of gold

While there’s still a soul to love

Let me run into the night

Running with a firelight, firelight

Burning with a firelight, firelight

(Matt Maher, Mia Fieldes, Hank Bentley) © 2015 Sony/ATV Tree Publishing / I Am A Pilgrim Songs (BMI) / Sony/ATV Tree Publishing / Upside Down Under (BMI) / Hank Bentley designee

Behind the Song:
One of my favorite stories of someone who struggled and had a very dark side was Mother Teresa. She went through extensive effort to start a religious order. She became a nun, started her own order of nuns and then moved to India; and immediately the presence of God disappeared from her life, and she didn't feel anything. She started writing letters to her spiritual director, confessing all of her internal struggles. At the same time, her ministry blew up and next thing you know, everyone is finding out about this nun from Calcutta, and everyone loves her. All the while, she was having these moments where she struggled and felt so weak and God felt so distant. She offered a quote that says, 'If I ever do become a saint, I will surely be one of darkness. For I will not be content to roam the streets of heaven while there's one soul who still longs for God.' Her quote captures that hunger of a person, who in the midst of struggle, still loves the marginalized and still loves the oppressed. 'Firelight' is a song about disillusionment and that very frail prayer of asking God to burn and shine in the midst of that and to continue to light the way through darkness. - Matt Maher