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Punishing Myself Before God Does cover
03. Lovecraft
Album: Punishing Myself Before God Does
Artist: Confessions of a Traitor
         
 

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for holding on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

Who am I?
Who should I be?
Forgive me God! What have I become?
She's drawn out the of worst of me (worst of me)

I put my trust in another
Only for lies to uncover
Not brave, not honest
You broke me like a promise

What did it cost
Everything I was, is lost
Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for hanging on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

Breath in breath out
Drink in the air of doubt

No death, no death
No doom, no doom
No anguish can awake the surpassing despair
Which flows from a loss of identity

Am I lying to myself,
Pretending to be someone else?
Will I be hated for hanging on?
Will I be hated when I’m gone?

What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity

I will not be defined by another
I will rebuild my sense of self
My mind and mental health
That is true wealth
Judge me, not where I started
But how far I’ve come
Our identities drives our actions
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity
What we do in life echoes in eternity



 

More Lyrics from Punishing Myself Before God Does

  1. 01. Punishing Myself Before God Does
  2. 02. Hearts of Stone
  3. 03. Lovecraft
  4. 04. Forever Hollow (feat. Brian Wille)
  5. 05. Peacekeeper
  6. 06. To Care for Those Who Cared for Us
  7. 07. The New Holland Haunting
  8. 08. A Place Where Your Hope Dies
  9. 09. Death's Door
  10. 10. TVA
                 
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This Tuesday, September 1
ALBUMS
Poor Old Lu At the Showbox (Live) (independent)

This Wednesday, September 2
SINGLES
Alex Henry Foster Calling Out! - Single [Hopeful Tragedy]
Scroll Eater Consume The Scroll - Single [Facedown]

This Friday, September 4
ALBUMS
Dan Musselman Dust and Doxology (independent)
Jeannie Ortega Phantom Love [Syntax]
Sarah Reeves Standing Up [Curb]
Zahna Break or Breakthrough [XOVR]

SINGLES
Beach Chapel Cardiff - Single (independent)
Chris Caro REDEEM - Single [Syntax]
K’nek, Mancito Telfort WALK - Single (independent)
Chandler Letner At a Bar - Single [Dream]
Malcolm Rue, A Tribe Apart Gimme That - Single [Syntax]
Nobody's Uncle The Shameless Swoon - Single (independent)
Matthew Plante FAVOUR! - Single [Dream]
Jon Reddick Tell Somebody - Single [Gotee]
Magdalene Rose Do You Want to Be Free? - Single [RockFest]
V1 Worship Still Worthy - Single [Dream]

Next Wednesday, September 9
ALBUMS
Natalie Layne Still Running To You - EP [Centricity]

Next Friday, September 11
ALBUMS
Tasha Cobbs Leonard TASHA Unscripted (Live) [Motown Gospel]
The Rock Music Not Alone (independent)

SINGLES
Johan Asgarde No Other - Single [Gotee]
Charly Perry Masterpieces - Single [Gotee]
Matthew Plante HAND ON ME! - Single [Dream]
Carly Ann Taylor Something Good Is Coming - Single [Curb]


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