Jesusfreakhideout.com celebrates 30 Years online in 2026... Get Your Music - and everything else - on Amazon! All purchases made on Amazon through this link earn a commission for Jesusfreakhideout.com!
Get the new FREE JFH MP3 compilation August 13, 2026!

Punishing Myself Before God Does cover
07. The New Holland Haunting
Album: Punishing Myself Before God Does
Artist: Confessions of a Traitor
         
 

No sun
No love
No sun after the rain
No love after the pain

Why am I so terrified at my own sense of worth?
I'm at the point where it no longer hurts
Is it too late? Will it fade or stay the same?
Paralysed in a state of rebirth

In a state of rebirth

What is reality?
When you succumb to fear
I’m powerless
Everything’s in vain
There’s nothing left of me
I scream and no one hears
I’m powerless
Possessed by this entity

Possessed
Possessed by this entity
There's nothing left of me

Can you feel what I endure?
Can you feel what I endure?
I need a moment to feel pure
Like a shadow needs the sun
I'm too weak, too weak to run

I'm too weak to run

What is my worth?
In a state of rebirth

What is reality?
When you succumb to fear
I’m powerless
Everything’s in vain
There’s nothing left of me
I scream and no one hears
I’m powerless
Possessed by this entity

Exercise me

No sun after the rain
No love among the pain



 

More Lyrics from Punishing Myself Before God Does

  1. 01. Punishing Myself Before God Does
  2. 02. Hearts of Stone
  3. 03. Lovecraft
  4. 04. Forever Hollow (feat. Brian Wille)
  5. 05. Peacekeeper
  6. 06. To Care for Those Who Cared for Us
  7. 07. The New Holland Haunting
  8. 08. A Place Where Your Hope Dies
  9. 09. Death's Door
  10. 10. TVA
                 
Get $20 off $50 and up order when you use our link -- and we'll get a discount, too!

Search JFH



This Friday, Friday, November 6
ALBUMS
Big Daddy Weave It's Time For Christmas - EP [Curb]
Hillside Recording & Addy Prado Come and See - EP (independent)
Meadows DESERT WALKER (CD) [Facedown Records]
Mystical Death Across [Rottweiler]
Chris Tomlin Good News Of Great Joy (Christmas Songs Of Worship) [Capitol CMG]
We Are Messengers Rejoice! (A Celtic Christmas LIVE) [Curb]
Mark Wills Grand Ole Revival [Gaither]

SINGLES
Olivia Lane Hark! The Herald Angels Sing - Single [BEC]
Tasha Layton & Dave Barnes What Should I Get You For Christmas - Single [BEC]
Blessing Offor The King Has Come - Single [Capitol CMG]
Hunter Plake Holly Jolly Christmas - Single [BEC]
River Valley Worship Come and Behold - Single [BEC]
Tae Lamar, YP aka Young Paul The Re-Up - Single [Polished Arrow]
Vineyard Worship Jesus Our Christ - Single [Vineyard]

VINYL
Meadows DESERT WALKER Vinyl [Facedown]

Next Wednesday, November 11
ALBUMS
Anberlin Currency [Equal Vision]

Next Friday, November 13
ALBUMS
Blanca A Christmas To Remember [Curb]
Amy Grant Tennessee Christmas: 10th Anniversary Edition [Capitol CMG/AG]
Jackie Hill Perry Still Blameless (Deluxe) [Velvet Blue]
Leem of the Earth See [Velvet Blue]
Tye Tribbett V20: First Semester (Live) [Freligious]

SINGLES
Josh Grove Glory - Single (independent)
Living Again Get This Far - Single (independent)
Magdalene Rose the terrifying reality of it all - Single [Rockfest]
Hunter Plake Silver Bells - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante OVEN MITT! - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Angels We Have Heard On High - Single [BEC]
Natasha Zimbaro Emmanuel - Single [Wings]

For all release dates, click here!