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04. The Dirt

Nervosa
by Showbread



 

 

I want to open up my guts
And crawl inside to make a home
And nestle up inside the steaming softness silent and alone
I want to pull apart the things you think that matter
Cause to me nothing is everything, just a vacant listless clatter
And I bury myself underneath myself
I will not reach or call for help
I want to do this on my own I want to feel it in my bones
I want to know the ugliness that wraps around me
So I open wide and die inside
Forget the things the world said I could be

There’s nothing for me
Nothing I want to be
And I am nothing now and free
The nothing's in love with me

Don’t you think it’s funny how the dirt just piles up on me?
And I’m being crushed but baby hush
You know it doesn’t matter very much
To know the nastiness and roll around in piles of this
And yawn into the stinking hiss then close it tightly in my fists
When I am gone I’ll leave no bones, no dust, no death, no love, no home
Just emptiness and all of this is nothing nothing nothing, I’m alone
So wave goodbye and close your eyes and never take off your disguise
The world is ugly when you take it off, go on and live your life

And leave me lying here the world will never shed a tear
For idiots who die like us and never ever know something that’s real

 

 

 

 

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This Friday, May 22, 2026
ALBUMS
Jason Dunn Formerly Known As... (independent)
The Figs How Did We Get Here? (independent)
Grand Motel Tooth of the Lion: A Spring Perennial (independent)
Philippa Hanna x Irael Houghton Magnificent [Integrity]
Jenn Johnson Happy [Bethel]
Lakewood Music + Worship Together Thank The Lord (Worship Together Session) EP [Worship Together]
Under the Myrtles The Curse is Broken - EP (independent)
Rusty Vining & His Friends Already / Not Yet (independent)

SINGLES
Cory Asbury Outsing The Angels - Single [BEC]
Autumn's Descent Caesar (I'll Haunt You Now) - Single (independent)
Caleb & John x Steven Curtis Chapman Proud - Single [Fair Trade]
CCV Music He's Working (Everything for Good) - Single [Harmony Group]
GVTH DVDDY Who Knows How It Ends? - Single [Velvet Blue Music]
J. Solo In the Good & Bad ft. Boannski - Single [Syntax]
Kamban No Chainmail (Freestyle) - Single [Syntax]
Myles Maestro LONELY SOUL - Single [Syntax]
Eddy Mann I Will Never Know the Desert Again - Single [MTS]
Darius Mullin Tombstone Blues ft. Paper Watch - Single (independent)
outr.cty, Zippy, OnBeatMusic CHEESIN' - Single [Syntax]
Presence Music Pick Up That Book - Single (independent)
Razzie, TUVÍ, & Baruch WEWHOOPINHELL - Single [Syntax]
Tyraels Ascension Bittersweet - Single [Rottweiler]
Wavorly EXILE - Single (independent)
Charles Weems I Will Follow - Single [Provident]
Ayiesha Woods No Rock (feat. Mr. Talkbox) - Single (independent)

Next Tuesday, May 26, 2026
SINGLES
Stryper I'm Alright, (I'm Okay) - Single [Frontiers]

Next Friday, May 29, 2026
ALBUMS
Benjamin William Hastings x Aodhán King Happy To Be Here [Anotherland/Capitol CMG]
Heartbound Lamentations (independent)
Narnia X [Sound Pollution]
Skye Peterson Through Line (independent)
Mike Rogers Mike Rogers [Gaither]
Tenroc God Is A Person [Provident]
Various Artists To Hell with the Devil - A 40th Anniversary Salute [Roxx]

SINGLES
Abandoned Pools Einstein's Space and Van Gogh's Sky - Single (independent)
Gracie Binion & John Wilds Show Me Your Face - Single [BEC]
KNGDM REVIVAL Psalm 44 - Single [Dream]
Hillside Recording Every Morning - Single [Ocean House]
Northview Worship Wildly Faithful - Single [BEC]
Matthew Plante Like You Do - Single [Dream]
Jordan St. Cyr Every Reason To Bellieve - Single [BEC]

VINYL
Newsboys Take Me To Your Leader (30th Anniversary Edition) [Red] [Girder]


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