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04. The Dirt

Nervosa
by Showbread



 

 

I want to open up my guts
And crawl inside to make a home
And nestle up inside the steaming softness silent and alone
I want to pull apart the things you think that matter
Cause to me nothing is everything, just a vacant listless clatter
And I bury myself underneath myself
I will not reach or call for help
I want to do this on my own I want to feel it in my bones
I want to know the ugliness that wraps around me
So I open wide and die inside
Forget the things the world said I could be

There’s nothing for me
Nothing I want to be
And I am nothing now and free
The nothing's in love with me

Don’t you think it’s funny how the dirt just piles up on me?
And I’m being crushed but baby hush
You know it doesn’t matter very much
To know the nastiness and roll around in piles of this
And yawn into the stinking hiss then close it tightly in my fists
When I am gone I’ll leave no bones, no dust, no death, no love, no home
Just emptiness and all of this is nothing nothing nothing, I’m alone
So wave goodbye and close your eyes and never take off your disguise
The world is ugly when you take it off, go on and live your life

And leave me lying here the world will never shed a tear
For idiots who die like us and never ever know something that’s real

 

 

 

 

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This Wednesday, March 18, 2026
ALBUMS
Pipe Bomb Hell Hole [Resuscitation]

This Friday, March 20, 2026
ALBUMS
Brinson How To Kill a Demon [GodChaserz]
The Caballerials Waxed Curbs & Suburbs - EP [Small Step]
Les and Joyce Carlsen Free Will (independent)
Dex the nerd who loves Jesus Repent and Believe - EP [Syntax]
Fine China I Felt Called - The Complete Sessions [Velvet Blue]
God Behind Bars Music God Behind Bars | Angola Prison - EP [Provident]
Lakewood Music House of Worship (independent)
Tae Lamar For Your Commute II [Polished Arrow]
Seventh Day Slumber Thy Kingdom Come [RockFest]
Bella Taylor Smith for the home - EP [Universal]
Various Artists Jesus Be the Name: Worship Songs for Easter [Provident]

SINGLES
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Elan Brio Attitudes - Single [Fly Dog]
DJ Noble Queued Up - Single (independent)
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Freedom Church The Church - Single [DREAM Worship]
goodwill. World So Cold (ft. Xay Hill) - Single [Syntax]
Griffin Dirty Hands - Single [Polished Arrow]
Josh Grove Rain or Shine - Single (independent)
Hillside Recording A Savior Who Cares - Single [Ocean House]
Tiffany Hudson Jesus The Only (feat. Davide Mutendji) - Single [Elevation]
Hulvey DAVE - Single [Reach]
Jus'Rzd Hol'On - Single [Syntax]
Kelo & DreBeeze Da Godson VULNERABLE - Single [Syntax]
Vic Lucas By Your Side - Single [Syntax]
Amber Lynn Bathroom Floor - Single [Sonlite]
Jeannie Ortega Outside - Single [Syntax]
David Pataconi You Don't Waste a Tear - Single (independent)
Tommee Profitt Blessed Assurance" (feat. Mara Justine) - Single [Capitol CMG]
Josiah Queen judas - Single [Syntax]
Michael W. Smith Hymn for Communion - Single [The Fuel]
tonyxtrotter WE GOT EACHOTHER - Single [Syntax]
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MAYIA WARREN Jesus Loves Me - Single [Syntax]
Bethany Wohrle That's How I Know - Single [Bethel]

VINYL
Seph Schlueter Counting My Blessings Vinyl [Provident/Sony]

Next Thursday, March 26, 2026
ALBUMS
Limoblaze Solid Ground - EP [Reach]

Next Friday, March 27, 2026
ALBUMS
Romy Fay The Chosen Adventures (Vol. 1) [feat. Romy Fay] [Capitol CMG]
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Point of Grace Lady Wisdom [Curb]
Tommee Profitt The Resurrection of the King [Capitol CMG]
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SINGLES
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