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Innocence & Instinct (Deluxe Edition) cover
07. Confession (What’s Inside My Head)
Album: Innocence & Instinct (Deluxe Edition)
Artist: Red
         
 

I feel fine
And I can smile
But I feel the anger coming
It's underneath
I don't know why
It's always overflowing
It's a constant fight
Deep inside
And I want to forget it

I confess
I'm always afraid
Always ashamed
Of what's inside me
I confess
I'm always afraid
Always ashamed
Of what's inside my head

And I can breathe
And I still feel
But not the way I want to
I'm on the edge
I don't know how
I can escape this nightmare

Oh, I'm wasting away
It's part of my instinct
I'll run away
From everything I hate
Take this away
Help me escape
Take this away
I confess

Innocence
Innocence
Innocence


Words & Music by Jasen Rauch, Rob Graves and Jason McArthur

Behind the Song:
Picking up where “Fight Inside” leaves off, “Confession” reveals a deepening battle between “innocence” and “instinct,” and a blistering look at a mind quietly primed to explode. Exposing his own tortured conscience beneath the surface, singer Michael Barnes confesses, “I feel fine and I can smile/But I feel the anger coming.” Dynamics abound with smooth vocal hooks crashing into agitated indignation, and raging chords giving way to the acoustics of a bouzouki guitar. In comic book terms, it’s the musical personification of David Banner starting to get angry. “The chorus talks about always being afraid that you are vulnerable and frail,” explains songwriter-guitarist Jasen Rauch, “but there is a humility and power to admitting your own war within.”

 

More Lyrics from Innocence & Instinct (Deluxe Edition)

  1. 01. Intro (Canto III) (Deluxe Edition Bonus)
  2. 02. Fight Inside
  3. 03. Death of Me
  4. 04. Mystery of You
  5. 05. Start Again
  6. 06. Never Be the Same
  7. 07. Confession (What’s Inside My Head)
  8. 08. Shadows
  9. 09. Ordinary World
  10. 10. Out From Under
  11. 11. Take It All Away
  12. 12. Overtake You (Deluxe Edition Bonus)
  13. 13. Forever (Deluxe Edition Bonus)
  14. 14. Nothing and Everything (Deluxe Edition Bonus)
                 
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