Last night, everything was movin’ so fast
I could barely keep track
Of my offenses or your defenses
In hindsight, I woulda, coulda, shoulda not gone there
But left without a word to spare
Was it your offenses or my defensiveness?
That’s got me thinkin’ that we’re never gonna get it right
I wanna straighten this before the sun goes down tonight
If I could only fight the bitterness I feel inside
This thing is eatin’ me alive
Well I’m right here
And you’re right there
And God knows we’ve got to start somewhere
‘Cause I’m messed up
And you’re broken
And those shots we fired are still smokin’
I’m tossin’ and turnin’ on the things I’d undo
As I wrestle with the painful truth
My sleep escapes me as guilt berates me
Exhausted, the memories are drawing so near
I can see it like a world premiere
When did my objective lose all objectiveness?
If I need you, and you need me
How can you turn your back and just leave me?
When I’m right here, and you’re right there
And God knows we’ve got to start somewhere
I said some things that I regret
And if I could, I’d take ‘em back
If I could turn my words around
You wouldn’t hear a sound
But here I am, and there you are
The space between us is not so far
I’m reaching out my hand in love
Before the fading sun, forgive me for what I’ve done
Behind the Song:“It’s about spousal struggle. Any time you’re in love with somebody you’re going to bang heads from time to time; you’re going to have your points of struggle. I don’t know how many times I’ve been lying in bed, eyes wide open, sweating it out and thinking, How am I going to make this right? Just regretting things I’ve said, the words I chose, and thinking about how to approach making that right. Then comes the resolve, the apology, and forgiveness. The song is all about that moment where you’re not quite there yet, and you’re sweating getting there. I love that song; it’s one of my favorite songs on the record. It’s a cool perspective on confrontation and reconciliation.
“Musically, the song has a Latin flavor, so we’ve got live horns on that. My favorite day recording of the whole record was the horn day. I love horns, because they’re so full of flavor. And when it comes to Latin music, horns are always prevalent. We used some of the guys from Salvador and some of the guys from Denver and the Mile High Orchestra. We had a good time.” - tobyMac