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06. The Happy Nihilist
Album: Vagabonds
Artist: The Classic Crime
         
 

I am a happy nihilist, no absolute truth does exist
When I decide to shake my fist, I only got myself to blame
Cause we’re all players and life's the game

I only take what I need, I am so light on my feet
I will not stop or concede, I am not driven by greed
No moral compass for me, it's all just natural feelings
Existence has no meaning, there's no such thing as happy
But late at night when I sleep, I dream of more than I see
There's something burning in me, a driving need to be free,
Why do I sit here and think about the things that I need?
There's nothing left to believe, oh is it all just a dream?

I’ve taught this to myself, piled books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like h*ll to trust nobody else but me

I used to read everything, I used to need nothing
I put my money on me, I used to be something
Now I can’t sleep, cause I’m not happy

I’ve taught this to myself, piled books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like h*ll to trust nobody else but me

Whoa oh oh
Why am I haunted by the metaphysical?
Is it a cosmic lie or is it literal?
The books I read that used to free my mind
Have made me more blind but the truth I’ll find it
I was a happy nihilist
Now I’m wondering why I exist

I’ve taught this to myself, piled books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like h*ll to trust nobody else but me


 

More Lyrics from Vagabonds

  1. 01. A Perfect Voice
  2. 02. Cheap Shots
  3. 03. Solar Powered Life
  4. 04. Four Chords
  5. 05. Vagabonds
  6. 06. The Happy Nihilist
  7. 07. My Name
  8. 08. Everything and Nothing
  9. 09. The Count
  10. 10. Different Now
  11. 11. Broken Mess
                 
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This Friday, August 28
ALBUMS
Anthem Edition Something's Goin' On - EP [Sonlite]
Bill B. Niche [Syntax]
DOE Shiloh [Provident/Sony]
Every Moment Holy: Prayer Songs, 2026 Q3 Anchoring the Heart in Hope (independent)
NRWHL Glory Be [The Charon Collective]
Noah Paul Harrison Do Not Go Gentle (Live) [Bethel]
I.A.N. I AM NEW [Syntax]
Prevailer Convalescent [Rottweiler]
John Van Deusen As Long As I Am In The Tent of This Body I Will Make A Joyful Noise Pt. 2 [Anotherland]
Various Artists Beyond Belief - Original Motion Picture Soundtrack [Girder]

SINGLES
11th Hour Today Is The Day - Single [Sonlite]
Angioplasty My Only (feat Shayla Van Tassel) - Single (independent)
Elan Brio Made For More - Single [Polished Arrow]
Kirk Franklin Thank You For Everything (feat. Karen Clark-Sheard) - Single [Fo Yo Soul]
Future of Forestry California - Single (independent)
Gaither These Are They (feat. David Phelps, Shane McConnell) [Live] - Single [Gaither]
Tim Hughes Make A Way (Live) - Single [Integrity]
Katy Weirich & Jake MacAdam Holy Ground - Single (independent)
Tae Lamar So Alive - Single [Polished Arrow]
John Long Trust In Him - Single (independent)
Adam Michael Pass the Parcel - Single (independent)
m1L, MotionPlus, Alias Molombo Made For More - Single [Polished Arrow]
Mountain People Worship No Lover Like Jesus - Single (independent)
Lexly Nirvana True Story (ft. VerbPro 12:4) - Single [Syntax]
Out of the Whirlwind Until Jesus Taught Me to Love - Single (independent)
John Pape The Road - Single (independent)
Leslie Perez Waiting For - Single [Gotee]
Matthew Plante KEEP FOCUS! - Single [Dream]
Sarah Reeves Made - Single [Curb]
Simply Worship & Sam Daniel Lamb of God - Single (independent)
Sleeping At Last Atom 17 - Single (independent)
Ryan Stevenson Eye of the Storm (Anniversary Edition) - Single [Gotee]
Tauren Wells Serve The Lord (Live) [feat. Davies.] - Single [Capitol CMG]
Sweden Yanulavich Holy City - Single (independent)

Next Wednesday, September 2
SINGLES
Alex Henry Foster Siren's Call - Single [Hopeful Tragedy]

Next Friday, September 4
ALBUMS
Sarah Reeves Standing Up [Curb]
Zahna Break or Breakthrough [XOVR]

SINGLES
Beach Chapel Cardiff - Single (independent)
Chandler Letner At a Bar - Single [Dream]
Matthew Plante FAVOUR! - Single [Dream]
Jon Reddick Tell Somebody - Single [Gotee]
Magdalene Rose Do You Want to Be Free? - Single [RockFest]
V1 Worship Still Worthy - Single [Dream]


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