Get the new FREE JFH METAL MP3 compilation -- Vol. 3!
Get the new FREE JFH METAL MP3 compilation -- Vol. 3!

JFH Song Lyrics

  Artist List   /   John Reuben   /   Professional Rapper


         


03. I Haven't Been Myself

Professional Rapper
by John Reuben



 

Iím not alright, I havenít been myself lately
Iím not okay with the way Iíve let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Iím not here for long
Iíll see you when Iím better
I'll see you when I'm better

Itís gotta get worse to get better
It went from no way, never to okay, whatever
Slowly but surely and sure as sure is blurry
Now things that once were me are no longer
Every so often God reminds me
But Iím always there in front to blind me
I value my pride more than peace of mind
My precious pride
There was a time when I had control but I let it go
I watched the world pass in slowmo
My lifeís ahead of me
I canít catch up
Stuck in a rut
I went too willingly
These thoughts are killing me
I wish I could control myself but I canít
Or can I?
Man Iím gone
I hope Iím not here for long
Itís just a visit
Ashamed of who Iíve become
Itís not really me
Or is it?

Iím not alright, I havenít been myself lately
Iím not okay with the way Iíve let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Iím not here for long
Iíll see you when Iím better

Thoughts lead to emotion which led to action
I hate the fact that it happened
ďThe Lord can forgive and forgetĒ
But Iím not able to do it
Maybe there is where the problem lies
Iím unable to forgive myself plus Iím too proud to ask for help
Whelp, sorry for who Iíve become
I guess circumstances can leave you numb
Plus, I refused accountability
It seemed like such small things you found in me
I called you secluded and illuded to the fact that your concerns were silly
Donít over-react
Now looking back in hindsight, heh
Iím able to see that you were right
Is it too late for me?
I know itís not
Itís just up to me to choose to stop

Iím not alright, I havenít been myself lately
Iím not okay with the way Iíve let my thoughts overtake
Take me away to the place I should have gone
I hope Iím not here for long
Iíll see you when Iím better

 

 

 

go to main Album page
Return to Full List of Artists

 

                 
Listen to the debut EP from the band Hopeful.!

Search JFH




This Tuesday, April 9, 2024
SINGLES
KJ-52 Down in the River (feat. Presence Music Band) - Single (independent)

This Friday, April 12, 2024
ALBUMS
Andy Hunter Presence, Volume 7 (independent)
The Blamed Twenty21 [The Charon Collective]
Ellie Holcomb All of My Days [Capitol CMG]
Legacy Five 25 [StowTown]
Make Sure June [Tooth & Nail]
New Life Worship God Is [Integrity]
REVERE Unscripted: Live from Stockholm [Integrity]
Various Artists Jesusfreakhideout.com Presents: Rock, Paper, Scissors, METAL. Vol. 3 [JFH Music]

SINGLES
AOH Music Abba Father - Single (independent)
Bodie Gratitude - Single [Provident]
Brotality Black Abandon - Single (independent)
Convictions Four Horses - Single (independent)
Melvin Crispell, III Hold On - Single [RCAI]
Dex the Nerd Who Loves Jesus YES LORD - Single (independent)
Jon Foreman I Propose A Toast - Single [Capitol CMG]
Jonas Myrin Made for You - Single [Capitol CMG]
Open Heaven Wonderful Jesus - Single [DREAM]
Alexander Pappas A Great Awakening - Single [Capitol CMG]
Procyse All of Us (feat. Illustrate) - Single [Polished Arrow]
Skye Reedy Only Jesus | Names of God - Double Single [The Fuel]
Remedy Drive Real Life - Single (independent)
TRANSFORMATION WORSHIP Overflow - Single [REPRESENT]
WHATUPRG This Time Last Year - Double Single [Reach]
BeBe Winans Father In Heaven (Right Now) - Single [Regimen]

This Saturday, April 13, 2024
ALBUMS
Plumb Candycoatedwaterdrops (Reimagined) (independent)

Next Friday, April 19, 2024
ALBUMS
Anne Wilson REBEL [Capitol CMG]
Treasure Seeker A Tribute to the Past (Reissue) [Ulterium]


For all release dates, click here!
 



Listen to the new album from Hope Beyond Suffering!




Listen to the new Album From Tim Juillet!

Check out depositphotos for royalty free images