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18. Thinking
Album: The Search
Artist: NF
         
 

Yeah, growing up, yeah
Know a lot, but I don't know enough
What you doin' here?
Why you even showin' up? Yeah
Showin' up for tryna show me love
Why you look confused like you don't really know what's up? Yeah
Why you always tryna judge?
I know who you are, yeah
Why you tryna, tryna front? Yeah
I am not the man I was, look
Ayy, made me a promise, I just hope you keep it
I don't like to get involved with things I don't believe in
I don't like to hang with people I don't trust to speak with
If you tell me that you mean it, then I hope you mean it
Yeah, feel like I don't deserve you when I hurt your feelings
I'm vulnerable, you got the keys to open all my secrets
You've always been there when I'm low to help pick up the pieces
I know I act like I don't need you yet, but lately, I've been thinking

Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking

Yeah, I wish that I was optimistic
I wish that I could trust my intuition
To most, negative thinking makes you a pessimist, but
To me, negative thinking means I'm just realistic
That's how I feel, ain't that a twisted view?
Claim that I don't care what people think, but is that really true?
Those the type of questions that I struggle with
That's the type of thing to keep me up at night
Wondering, I wonder if the pressure I've been under is too much on my shoulders
Who gon' care when this all fades, I turn gray and get older?
Yeah, that's the type of thing that I don't wanna answer
But just 'cause I don't wanna do it don't mean I don't have to
See, these are lessons that you learn in life
And we only get one of 'em, hope I'm learning right
I know that everything comes with a price
Yeah, yeah, everything comes with a price
Y'all got no clue what I have sacrificed
And lately, I've been thinking

Yeah, lately, I've been thinking
Yeah, yeah, I have been thinking
Yeah, I have been thinking (I have been thinking)


 

More Lyrics from The Search

  1. 01. The Search
  2. 02. Leave Me Alone
  3. 03. Change
  4. 04. My Stress
  5. 05. Nate
  6. 06. Time
  7. 07. Returns
  8. 08. When I Grow Up
  9. 09. Only
  10. 10. Let Me Go
  11. 11. -Interlude-
  12. 12. Hate Myself
  13. 13. I Miss The Days
  14. 14. No Excuses
  15. 15. Like This
  16. 16. Options
  17. 17. WHY
  18. 18. Thinking
  19. 19. Trauma
  20. 20. Time
                 
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This Friday, August 28
ALBUMS
Anthem Edition Something's Goin' On - EP [Sonlite]
Bill B. Niche [Syntax]
DOE Shiloh [Provident/Sony]
Every Moment Holy: Prayer Songs, 2026 Q3 Anchoring the Heart in Hope (independent)
NRWHL Glory Be [The Charon Collective]
Noah Paul Harrison Do Not Go Gentle (Live) [Bethel]
I.A.N. I AM NEW [Syntax]
Prevailer Convalescent [Rottweiler]
John Van Deusen As Long As I Am In The Tent of This Body I Will Make A Joyful Noise Pt. 2 [Anotherland]
Various Artists Beyond Belief - Original Motion Picture Soundtrack [Girder]

SINGLES
11th Hour Today Is The Day - Single [Sonlite]
Angioplasty My Only (feat Shayla Van Tassel) - Single (independent)
Elan Brio Made For More - Single [Polished Arrow]
Kirk Franklin Thank You For Everything (feat. Karen Clark-Sheard) - Single [Fo Yo Soul]
Future of Forestry California - Single (independent)
Gaither These Are They (feat. David Phelps, Shane McConnell) [Live] - Single [Gaither]
Tim Hughes Make A Way (Live) - Single [Integrity]
Katy Weirich & Jake MacAdam Holy Ground - Single (independent)
Tae Lamar So Alive - Single [Polished Arrow]
John Long Trust In Him - Single (independent)
Adam Michael Pass the Parcel - Single (independent)
m1L, MotionPlus, Alias Molombo Made For More - Single [Polished Arrow]
Mountain People Worship No Lover Like Jesus - Single (independent)
Lexly Nirvana True Story (ft. VerbPro 12:4) - Single [Syntax]
Out of the Whirlwind Until Jesus Taught Me to Love - Single (independent)
John Pape The Road - Single (independent)
Leslie Perez Waiting For - Single [Gotee]
Matthew Plante KEEP FOCUS! - Single [Dream]
Sarah Reeves Made - Single [Curb]
Simply Worship & Sam Daniel Lamb of God - Single (independent)
Sleeping At Last Atom 17 - Single (independent)
Ryan Stevenson Eye of the Storm (Anniversary Edition) - Single [Gotee]
Tauren Wells Serve The Lord (Live) [feat. Davies.] - Single [Capitol CMG]
Sweden Yanulavich Holy City - Single (independent)

Next Wednesday, September 2
SINGLES
Alex Henry Foster Siren's Call - Single [Hopeful Tragedy]

Next Friday, September 4
ALBUMS
Sarah Reeves Standing Up [Curb]
Zahna Break or Breakthrough [XOVR]

SINGLES
Beach Chapel Cardiff - Single (independent)
Chandler Letner At a Bar - Single [Dream]
Matthew Plante FAVOUR! - Single [Dream]
Jon Reddick Tell Somebody - Single [Gotee]
Magdalene Rose Do You Want to Be Free? - Single [RockFest]
V1 Worship Still Worthy - Single [Dream]


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