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Punishing Myself Before God Does cover
07. The New Holland Haunting
Album: Punishing Myself Before God Does
Artist: Confessions of a Traitor
         
 

No sun
No love
No sun after the rain
No love after the pain

Why am I so terrified at my own sense of worth?
I'm at the point where it no longer hurts
Is it too late? Will it fade or stay the same?
Paralysed in a state of rebirth

In a state of rebirth

What is reality?
When you succumb to fear
I’m powerless
Everything’s in vain
There’s nothing left of me
I scream and no one hears
I’m powerless
Possessed by this entity

Possessed
Possessed by this entity
There's nothing left of me

Can you feel what I endure?
Can you feel what I endure?
I need a moment to feel pure
Like a shadow needs the sun
I'm too weak, too weak to run

I'm too weak to run

What is my worth?
In a state of rebirth

What is reality?
When you succumb to fear
I’m powerless
Everything’s in vain
There’s nothing left of me
I scream and no one hears
I’m powerless
Possessed by this entity

Exercise me

No sun after the rain
No love among the pain



 

More Lyrics from Punishing Myself Before God Does

  1. 01. Punishing Myself Before God Does
  2. 02. Hearts of Stone
  3. 03. Lovecraft
  4. 04. Forever Hollow (feat. Brian Wille)
  5. 05. Peacekeeper
  6. 06. To Care for Those Who Cared for Us
  7. 07. The New Holland Haunting
  8. 08. A Place Where Your Hope Dies
  9. 09. Death's Door
  10. 10. TVA
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