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09. Death's Door

Punishing Myself Before God Does
by Confessions of a Traitor



 

 

I look at myself as the reflection I wish to see
But what I project just is not me
Is not me

What more could you ask of a man shattered and put back together?
I wear the stains, the cracks, the flaws
Forever

But until the trauma has taught me what I need to know
I’ll close off, shut down, a lonely march on death row

Forever judged by the things I’d say
Yet my actions have no weight to this day

I’m told the mountains too high to climb
The walls too strong to breach
Death’s door opens, to swallow me whole
I’m told the mountains too high to climb
And the skies too high to reach
Death’s door opens, I’ve lost control

There’s something haunting me
Telling me that it all ends tonight
All ends tonight

There’s something haunting me
Telling me that it all ends tonight
All ends tonight

I ask for mercy
As I journey across dark water
Sound feet and silent breath
A terrifying dance with death

I’m told the mountains too high to climb
The walls too strong to breach
Death’s door opens, to swallow me whole
I’m told the mountains too high to climb
And the skies too high to reach
Death’s door opens, I’ve lost control

I’ve seen the gates of hell
From grace I fell
Redemption is the story I’ll tell
Death’s door opens, to swallow me whole
I’ve seen the gates of hell
From grace I fell
Redemption is the story I’ll tell
Death’s door opens, I’ve lost control

Death at the gates again
Howling my name
Cannot greet you today
I’ve got a war to win

Death at the gates again
Howling my name
Cannot greet you today
I’ve got a war to win


 

 

 

 

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