I want to jump - I’m so scared
I want to swim - don’t want to get wet
How do I get to you- what do I have to do?

I want to pray - I need sleep
Don’t want to sow, I just want to reap
I know what you’re going to say: there’s something in the way

Will it ever end, this war inside me?

I’m just so glad
That what I can’t, you can
And where I end
That's where you begin
I'm just so glad...

I want to sing from my soul
I’m getting bored with rock ‘n roll
All my childhood dreams, (nothing but) childish fantasies

Here I come - there I go
Maybe yes, possibly no
The Good Fight’s a brawl - the winner gets it all

Bring it to an end, this war inside me

I’m just so glad...

Today hot, tomorrow cold
It’s the oldest story that’s ever been told...

One day you’ll end this war inside me

Written by John Ellis © 2003 mouthfulofsongs / Birdwing Music / Near Bliss Music (ASCAP) All rights administered by EMI Christian Music Publishing.

Behind the Song:
"This song began as an afterthought, but on the same Easter weekend in 2003 that "You Only" began life, I had a burst of creative energy and this song's lyrics were written very quickly. It's a list of contradictions, the things Paul talks about in Romans in his famous description of the struggle inside him between his flesh and his spirit: "The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” That's the theme of this song, and it resolves in the relief of knowing that ultimately, Jesus gives us the strength to be victorious over sin. It's a very personal, confessional lyric." - John Ellis (Tree 63)